I had bareback sex with a lot of random guys for ten years. I found out later that four of them were HIV+. One of them died. I am negative. I still don't know how I am alive today. It's hard for me to have sex with anyone because I am totally the opposite. I don't want to do anything but masturbate and kiss. I am freaked out about bodily fluids because I dodged so many bullets. I think that is why I don't make it past date #2 before the other person never returns my calls. It's been this way for years. Oh well. At least I'm alive.